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you need your inner eye tested if you ask me.
Calvin: If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night, I’ll bet they’d live a lot differently. Hobbes: How so? Calvin: Well, when you look into infinity, you realize that there are more important things than what people do all day.

Calvin: If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night, I’ll bet they’d live a lot differently.

Hobbes: How so?

Calvin: Well, when you look into infinity, you realize that there are more important things than what people do all day.

(via co0olst0rybro)

It’s 2:17 AM and I have to be in class at 10 AM. I have my last final at 7PM I haven’t finished getting note cards ready for. But of course I’m feeling suddenly so inspired about life this late at night.  I’m going to be using Tumblr a lot more lately, and I’m really going to try to decrease the amount of time on other social media sites. My life is being so consumed with what I look like on a virtual level, and that’s not what’s important.  I started this blog on November 5, 2008. Mainly because I wanted to follow Pete Wentz on it. But over time it’s morphed a bit. I used to only post personal things. Then I got obsessed with trying to gain followers so I only reblogged content. Then it all kind of fizzled out. I don’t know. All I know is that I want to document my life here again. An occasional reblog. But besides this, I want this to be my life. Not just my interests. Here’s to this summer changing my life. Here’s to this summer being one more step in me being the person I’m going to be in life. One who’s healthy, happy, and following her passions. Here’s to life. And here’s to me. 

It’s 2:17 AM and I have to be in class at 10 AM. I have my last final at 7PM I haven’t finished getting note cards ready for. But of course I’m feeling suddenly so inspired about life this late at night. 

I’m going to be using Tumblr a lot more lately, and I’m really going to try to decrease the amount of time on other social media sites. My life is being so consumed with what I look like on a virtual level, and that’s not what’s important. 

I started this blog on November 5, 2008. Mainly because I wanted to follow Pete Wentz on it. But over time it’s morphed a bit. I used to only post personal things. Then I got obsessed with trying to gain followers so I only reblogged content. Then it all kind of fizzled out. I don’t know. All I know is that I want to document my life here again. An occasional reblog. But besides this, I want this to be my life. Not just my interests.

Here’s to this summer changing my life. Here’s to this summer being one more step in me being the person I’m going to be in life. One who’s healthy, happy, and following her passions.

Here’s to life. And here’s to me. 

A month and a half ago I was drunk at a friend’s place, and they were all buying tickets to go see Showtek. Being drunk I said, “Hell yeah I’ll go!” So now I’m going to go see them tonight and I legitimately only know one of their songs. But it’ll still be a kickass time.

I CANNOT WAIT TO GO TO THIS. 

I’m more excited for this than Bonnaroo at this point. I can’t believe I’ll be going to Delaware this summer!

Can’t get over how fantastic this song is. 

It’s strange having a best friend with a private jet and has a whole other secret job in another state. We would be hanging out earlier in the day, and then this happens.

“Hey, want to go grab dinner tonight?”

“I can’t. I’m in New York.”

I need to start this up in my life.

Here’s the thing. I looked at this and immediately saw myself 20-30 years ago. I just didn’t get it. I was a nice guy, never did anyone any wrong and saw jerkoffs getting all the attention, girls, friends and kudos. What was wrong with the world?

I’d had plenty of heart-2-hearts with people along the way and none appeared to answer the question of why I had no/few friends.

Then, one day, like being slapped in the face with a wet kipper someone I knew pointed out a simple fact to me and there it was.

I was a bit older and a bit drunk at a with a friend, who was incredibly popular. He was going away on a golf weekend and wanted to know why I wasn’t going. I said that I didn’t feel like I was part of the ‘clique’ and felt I was only ever really invited to play as an afterthought to make up a foursome. It really pissed me off that geeks like xxxxx and yyyyy would be invited regularly but not me.

He said, “Anotherfuckwit, when have you ever invited me to play golf? I get invites from xxxxx and yyyyy and zzzzz and all of the others and they all make a point of arranging a game and inviting people to play. From there we end up arranging more games and the invited become circular. You’re a great guy, and a lovely fella but you have never once arranged a game of golf and invited anyone to play.”

What a cock I had been. How many years of my life had I wasted waiting for some party invite or phone call that would never come because I’d been sitting like a beggar in a street waiting for handouts. People didn’t invite me because they had no reason to believe I liked them or wanted to be in their company. All people have their own insecurities and very few are going to make an effort to include someone if they feel it won’t be received or reciprocated.

We all want to feel liked. That means the people you want to like you, want to know you to like them first.

CHANGE OF PLANS

So I’m no longer going to Europe on June 22.

Instead, I’m leaving July 6. 

So pretty much what my schedule for this summer looks like is. 

Miami on June 5 to see Fall Out Boy. 

Bonnaroo is June 13-16.

Road trip around with Megan for 5 days after that. 

Firefly Festival is June 21-23 (Hence why I changed when I was leaving).

Throw a dentist appointment in between this at some point in time. 

Celebrate the 4th of July actually in America this year.

Head on over the big blue from July 6-July 30

Then perfection/recruitment weeks will be August 4-18. 

HOLY MOST AWESOME SUMMER EVER.  I CAN’T WAIT.

this album is one that is particularly close to us. we recorded it in secret from the music industry, critics, and even our fans. an artists first record sounds the way it does because it is often made without expectations. this is not our first record. but because of the way we went about making this one in the shadows it is with out a doubt the first record in a new chapter of fall out boy. we made this music for ourselves and no one else at the end of the day. this is meant be played loud, with the windows down on summer nights. four friends with our backs to each other fighting in the darkness against anything and everything that is out there. we bowed our heads, took a knee and plugged back in. from the first strings to the last shouts- this is us. these incantations are meant to conjure realness, to unlock whatever the rock and roll is inside each of you- in each of us. put on your headphones, turn it up- this is what we have spent the last year and a half making. most importantly, thank you for wishing or waiting- because with out you, the most important piece, this record would never have been made. so we figured you have waited long enough… with out further ado, please listen closely

—Fall Out Boy when introducing “Save Rock and Roll” in its entirety (via oceanxeyes)